impulse update

ok.. ive become so bored that ive resorted to updating my blog.. isnt that sad...

woot! exams are almost over! score! man, ive been so stressed out recently coz of all this bloody studying and all that crap.. it makes me more hungry (than usual).. probly not a good thing.

omg, the drama exam rly pissed me off 2dai! like, firstly.. we had been told that it was gonna be long.. but not fukin so long that you can'ne even finish the damn thing!

like, we didnt even get any reading time coz ms cameron decided that we could just start when we got there... so we didnt know what to expect. EVEN THOUGH our drama teacher told us that we should use our reading time wisely so that we knew what to expect.. WHAT FRIKKIN READING TIME!?!

on the front of the booklet it said 5 sections. count them! 5!! so i was quietly confident when i got to the 5th section and we still had 10 mins left.. im thinkin: this is good.. it wasnt THAT hard..

and then i turn the page and find that theres ANOTHER FRIKKIN SECTION!!! wtf?!

and by that time i had only just started the 5th section, so i didnt even have time to START the fukin 6th one!! so that means that ive lost 10 marks off the whole thing just coz i didnt get time to do the last part!!! typical!!

and i know what you're thinkin now: oh, but you should have managed your time better...

no i fukin shouldnt have!! my time was well spent - ANSWERING ALL THE OTHER BLOODY QUESTIONS!! and they didnt even have multiple choice or anythin.. it was all either short or long answer questions.. if they wanted ppl to complete the damn thing, why didnt they make it a more reasonable length?!

argh, and i thought it was gonna be ok coz im not actually that bad at drama.. the theory part is always easy.. but no! stupid bloody exam had to fuck it all up!!

and dont even get me started on the maths test! bloody non-calculator questions always screw with my brain... even the core section was confusing.. but ive come to realise that, no matter how hard i study or how hard i try, im always gonna fail in science and maths... so why try?

on the opposite hand... for some stupid reason the science test was the easiest one ever... WHAT? THATS NOT HOW IT GOES! SCIENCE IS ALWAYS HARD!! and the thing that gives me the shits is that i spent agesss studying (the night before) just to rock up and find that it wasnt rly worth all that time spent because the bloody thing was so damn easy!

only one more to go now.. THANK GOD!!!!

cept its frikkin PD... who's idea was it anyway that we would have a PD exam... what the hell are they gonna test us on??

and then after that... IM FREE!

well... that is AFTER tournament of the minds.... bloody take-up-every-day-of-my-life bloody thing! i dont even think we're gonna be finished by the day we're meant to perform... we havent even got the script done for christ sake!

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on another note...

i have a new favourite song!

well.. its not rly NEW new.. but its a cool song never the less!

ive noticed that i tend to listen to the lyrics of songs... i like angry songs sometimes... they're cool.. sorta like me, coz im always angry...  =.="

but srsly, this dude must have been pissed at someone, check it out:

I began my ascent at minus zero

you made so sure of that

you tried to keep me down here

your complacency has been your downfall

nobody made you king of the world

and im here to dethrone you

so kiss the ring motherf**ker

its my time, my time to shine

grasping for the straws as they fall

maybe you can make a splint for your broken ego

for your broken ego

so i say thankyou for the scars

and the guilt and the pain

every tear i never cried has sealed your fukin fate

did you take me for a fool

or were you just to blind to see

that every effort made has failed

and there is no destroying me

hate can be a positive emotion

when it forces you to better yourself

you built me, constructed my desire

perfected my hatred

now im driven to be ten times better than you think you are

ten times better than you think you are

piece by piece ive built my walls

and burned the bridges down

that lead back to people like you

so full of malice, so full of scorn

you tried your best to crush my spirit

you tried to steal my soul

you pushed my back against the wall

and i broke it down

i will not be broken

though i am the one that bleeds

i will not be broken

i am the one

btw, the song is called You Eclipsed By Me

its by Atreyu <3

but, uh... might not be everyone's "cup of tea", you know?

*sigh* i wish i could write lyrics like that... theyre so powerful

maybe i will one day..

ok, i'll stop typing now before i exceed the word limit on this blog... is there a word limit?

aite laytr dudes

~cait