impulse update

ok.. ive become so bored that ive resorted to updating my blog.. isnt that sad...

woot! exams are almost over! score! man, ive been so stressed out recently coz of all this bloody studying and all that crap.. it makes me more hungry (than usual).. probly not a good thing.

omg, the drama exam rly pissed me off 2dai! like, firstly.. we had been told that it was gonna be long.. but not fukin so long that you can'ne even finish the damn thing!

like, we didnt even get any reading time coz ms cameron decided that we could just start when we got there... so we didnt know what to expect. EVEN THOUGH our drama teacher told us that we should use our reading time wisely so that we knew what to expect.. WHAT FRIKKIN READING TIME!?!

on the front of the booklet it said 5 sections. count them! 5!! so i was quietly confident when i got to the 5th section and we still had 10 mins left.. im thinkin: this is good.. it wasnt THAT hard..

and then i turn the page and find that theres ANOTHER FRIKKIN SECTION!!! wtf?!

and by that time i had only just started the 5th section, so i didnt even have time to START the fukin 6th one!! so that means that ive lost 10 marks off the whole thing just coz i didnt get time to do the last part!!! typical!!

and i know what you're thinkin now: oh, but you should have managed your time better...

no i fukin shouldnt have!! my time was well spent - ANSWERING ALL THE OTHER BLOODY QUESTIONS!! and they didnt even have multiple choice or anythin.. it was all either short or long answer questions.. if they wanted ppl to complete the damn thing, why didnt they make it a more reasonable length?!

argh, and i thought it was gonna be ok coz im not actually that bad at drama.. the theory part is always easy.. but no! stupid bloody exam had to fuck it all up!!

and dont even get me started on the maths test! bloody non-calculator questions always screw with my brain... even the core section was confusing.. but ive come to realise that, no matter how hard i study or how hard i try, im always gonna fail in science and maths... so why try?

on the opposite hand... for some stupid reason the science test was the easiest one ever... WHAT? THATS NOT HOW IT GOES! SCIENCE IS ALWAYS HARD!! and the thing that gives me the shits is that i spent agesss studying (the night before) just to rock up and find that it wasnt rly worth all that time spent because the bloody thing was so damn easy!

only one more to go now.. THANK GOD!!!!

cept its frikkin PD... who's idea was it anyway that we would have a PD exam... what the hell are they gonna test us on??

and then after that... IM FREE!

well... that is AFTER tournament of the minds.... bloody take-up-every-day-of-my-life bloody thing! i dont even think we're gonna be finished by the day we're meant to perform... we havent even got the script done for christ sake!

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on another note...

i have a new favourite song!

well.. its not rly NEW new.. but its a cool song never the less!

ive noticed that i tend to listen to the lyrics of songs... i like angry songs sometimes... they're cool.. sorta like me, coz im always angry...  =.="

but srsly, this dude must have been pissed at someone, check it out:

I began my ascent at minus zero

you made so sure of that

you tried to keep me down here

your complacency has been your downfall

nobody made you king of the world

and im here to dethrone you

so kiss the ring motherf**ker

its my time, my time to shine

grasping for the straws as they fall

maybe you can make a splint for your broken ego

for your broken ego

so i say thankyou for the scars

and the guilt and the pain

every tear i never cried has sealed your fukin fate

did you take me for a fool

or were you just to blind to see

that every effort made has failed

and there is no destroying me

hate can be a positive emotion

when it forces you to better yourself

you built me, constructed my desire

perfected my hatred

now im driven to be ten times better than you think you are

ten times better than you think you are

piece by piece ive built my walls

and burned the bridges down

that lead back to people like you

so full of malice, so full of scorn

you tried your best to crush my spirit

you tried to steal my soul

you pushed my back against the wall

and i broke it down

i will not be broken

though i am the one that bleeds

i will not be broken

i am the one

btw, the song is called You Eclipsed By Me

its by Atreyu <3

but, uh... might not be everyone's "cup of tea", you know?

*sigh* i wish i could write lyrics like that... theyre so powerful

maybe i will one day..

ok, i'll stop typing now before i exceed the word limit on this blog... is there a word limit?

aite laytr dudes

~cait

never thought i'd say this, but...

exams werent actually that bad today.. i thought it'd be like.. all crappy and everything, but i think i did ok on them...

woot! that was my only day where i had 3 exams! now its all ones and twos till the end of the week...then its PARTAY!!

woah... did i just say "partay"? i promise i'll never say that ever again...   =.="

in other news!

...TOM is pretty disasterous.. the two yr 7 minions are pains in the arse coz, instead of actually doing any work, theyre buggerising around and annoying the rest of us who are actually putting in an effort to get some work done! thanks to the two yr 8's we've got costumes and some props done (thanx guys!)..

and then there's us yr 10's who are busy with the script.

mrs (satan) christie isnt being very helpful by calling random meetings every five minutes so that we can listen to her prattle on and state the obvious while wasting a hell of a lot of time.. everyone in the room was pissed coz the actual thing is next weekend and im pretty sure nobody is even near finished...

so thanx to satan's extreme lack of organisational skills, we all have to rush around and try to finish our performances.. she even wants us to do some spontanious challenges through the week to get us ready for the real thing. well THANX ALOT BUT WE DONT HAVE THE TIME!!

geez.. you'd think that she'd realise that some of us have either exams or prior commitments to go to this week! but NO! SHE'S A DUMBASS!

urgh, it makes me annoyed even thinking about it...

anyways, off to eat then study then sleep.

laytr all

~cait

aviator and the 70's

woot! went to newtown with Raynor 2dai looked round all the retro stores.

man, i love newtown - so many vintage things :D

anyways, bought this awesome pair of aviator sunglasses and a purple shirt from the 70's..

for my 16th, im having a 70's themed party, so im lookin for some retro gear to wear.. (probly not the sunnies, but anyways)

im definitely going back there closer to my b'day.. loveeee the old shirts and coats..

and i really wanna go back to the retro furniture stores! there was this old phone (one of the circular dial ones) and it was all silver and shiney.. b-e-a-utifl! shame i didnt have $250 though =.="

there were also some other cool things like old radios and tvs and stuff.. it was madass

so yar, i encourage you all to go to newtown at some stage and check it out :D

laytr dudes.

~cait

WARNING....another post

urgh, i really hate being sick. but then again, i dont know anyone who actually enjoys having a cold. can you imagine that? "oh goodie! i just love not being able to smell, taste, breathe, or talk! and i just adore having a headache every five minutes! i wonder what i can not-do today! maybe i'll miss out on hanging out with my friends, or seeing a good movie! yes! thankyou bacteria!"

wow.. what a spaz.

wah! exams soon! im really not looking forward to spending all of my time outside school on studying everything we've learnt from the passed year or so. man, thats a hell of a lot of french and science revision... and dont even get me started on the history!

say goodbye to all my free weekends, and say hello to chronic tiredness and major stress.. bummer..

at the moment, im mourning the fact that all the good bands never come out to Australia.. i think that would be my one and only reason to move to America. i was watching an ad for Projekt Revolution (Linkin Park, Atreyu, The Bravery, Chris Cornell, Ashes Divide, 10 Years, Hawthorne Heights, Armour for Sleep, Street Drum Corps) and i soooo wish it would come here! i would soooo go!

actually, im kinda tempted to move to the UK. one: because i love it there, and two: because they also get good bands touring there. im pretty sure Fall Out Boy is playing there soon. damn! i wanna go to that gig!

im also in the mood to eat Oreos and go CD shopping... my CD list is pretty sizable at the moment and currently comprises of: Meriwether, The Audition, Chiodos, Cute is what we aim for, Pensive, Atreyu, Seether, Capital Lights, The Wombats, Circa Survive, Secret and Whisper, and Dead Poetic. now all i need is a wallet full of money with which to buy them all..

damn, unemployment sux. i really wanna work in either a music store or an art shop.

right now, at school, the only subjects keeping me sane are art and media team.. technically media team isnt a subject, but its cool anyway..

i was watching some of the Tropfest finalist short films the other day, and ive now come up with my own idea for a short film, entitled "Don't Feed the Birds". i wont go into any detail bout it, incase all you bastards decide to take my idea, in which case i would be severely pissed off.. havent quite got round to drawing a storyboard for it yet, but its a work in progress, so yar...

you know whats really addictive? making those little paper stars with the star paper you can buy from morning glory.. seriously, i bought a pack yesterday and ive now finished it all.. damn, time to buy more paper..

anyway, i was gonna say something else, but ive forgotten what is was now, and ive gotta go now, so yar..

aite, laytr dudes..

more unfinished lyrics

okai, plz note that i was in a bad mood when i wrote these lyrics...

My blood,

My eyes,

My words are poison.

Can't stand this world,

this empty life.

My mind,

My lungs,

My heart is dead.

My blood doesn't flow,

my veins run dry.

My heart - it stops beating for you.

And, if I should die tonight,

just know

that I don't love you.

[Chorus]

My love is best served cold,

with a side of intolerance.

You'll never find solace in me,

I'll never keep you warm.

My hatred runs deep,

my remorse is gone.

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thats all ive got so far..

any thoughts?